Fly me to the moon

Since the rest of my blog posts have been written from my lovely iPhone, I think its time to actually sit down on a computer and write something without weird wording and grammatical errors. Haha. There are different types of things in my life that I value very much. It starts with my Grandparents story. My Grandpa on my dad's side served in the Navy for over 30 years. During this time he met my Grandma in Okinawa Japan, got married, got pregnant and eventually brought her and my dad to the United States. Once they moved here; like any other military family they moved constantly. California, Texas, Hawaii, Florida. During this time, my Grandma was a stay and home mom and housewife. Took care of the cooking, cleaning, yard work and the children. She also took pastry and painting classes to improve her skills. In Texas is where she met some of her most valuable neighbors. These neighbors turned into friends. Such good friends that they still talk to this day and she is coming to visit at the end of June. After over 30 years, many moves and life changes... they still talk. Its those types of relationships that remind me what life is all about. The connections that we have with people who mean most. I look up to my Grandparents more than anyone else. They have been married almost 50 years and still tell each other how much they love each other daily. Its that type of marriage that blossomed in the late 1950's that have the solid fundamentals of a successful relationship. There is no such thing as divorce. Fights are always resolved with communication and compromise. It's the simple life. This is why I know Firas and I are in it for the long run, because we have the same view on the important things in our lives. We want to live in simply. Always keeping in mind what is most important to us. <3 We have our first meeting with a potential client and we are seriously crossing our fingers because it would be incredible to secure our first one! A lot of time and effort has all lead to this.

Talk shit, get hit... Motherfucker

Drama is not my thing. Never really was and probably never will be. Sure, my favorite shows include Real Housewives of Beverly Hills and Teen Mom 2 but I don't like drama in my real life. Unfortunately humans are... Human. Like Robert McNamara said, you can't change human nature. People are interested in other people's lives naturally and sometimes that's good and sometimes that's bad.

When it really comes down to it, I am so thankful for the people around me. They remind me to love and appreciate humanity even if they are a real piece of shit.

People are going to talk about you continually and there isn't really anything you can do about it. It's probably because they are envious of the beautiful things you have in your life. It is what it is.

Peaks and lows

It's the beginning of April and what a beautiful couple of days it's been! I am so thankful for the sunshine. It just adds to the excitement of our business. We sent out 100 marketing postcards last week and we hope to meet with at least one. Our office is almost complete minus a corner couch. We're on the exact path we were always supposed to be on. Working with my best friend/boyfriend is such a gift. I enjoy every minute!

I'm going to real talk for a bit. My life literally peaked on my birthday in September. Everything was going so perfectly. I was able to pay all of my debt off, quit working full time and party like a rock star on my actual birthday. Then everything started to change. Firas' uncle came from Syria, took over our room, our basement and was supposed to be here for 2 months... They're still here. It's just caused many problems in general that we can't really change. Also during the winter was when I had my first panic attack. It was the most horrible experience ever. I never ever want to feel that way again. It's so overwhelming and debilitating. It's taken a few months but I've finally rid of the lingering anxiousness. Thank god. Seriously.

I am finally at the point where I'm feeling really happy and optimistic again. Excited for life and everything we have planned. It's taken this long and it's just going to get better. I feel like the winter weather also had something to do with it. The continuous gloom and darkness really gets to me. We're hoping by next winter we will be able to live somewhere sunny for a few months.

Make way for a positive day.